Sometimes it’s important to remember how far you’ve come
By Andy Maldonado
Posted: Thu Sep 4 11:19:38 2025
Me plein air painting - 09/02/25
Backstory
It’s a bit hard to pin down “when” I started learning how to draw. Like most people, I drew as a child, but I never took it seriously. I’ve always had a distinct “I suck” feeling, since middle school at least, because I was so bad at drawing. By that age kids with “talent” start appearing. I already felt like I was washed up and could never be an artist.
High school is the time when teenagers start thinking about what they want to do with their career. I was stuck because I wanted to be a creative of some kind. I’ve always been interested in animation and thought I could somehow find my way into it if I just learned how to draw a bit. I could use my interest in books and storytelling to put together some animations and a portfolio. Of course, I had no portfolio, so art school was completely out of the question. Despite that, I took my first figure drawing classes to learn the basics of drawing people. I found it frustrating and difficult, but enjoyed the routine and the process, and was hoping to take some classes in college.
Once I was in college, I didn’t take any drawing classes. I believe Rutgers required students to be a part of Mason Gross (the art school) to take any of their classes (but it’s been a long time and my memory is a bit hazy about that), so I worked with books instead. The book that really opened up art to me was Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain. It’s full of debunked science about right brain and left brain, but the actual content of the book completely changed how I approached drawing. It taught me how to “look” at a subject and not draw symbols. But of course, the techniques in the book weren’t good for what I was striving for, art for animation/comics. For those you need to practice constructive drawing, which is where I headed next in my studies.
I had a few books I would draw from, like The Animator’s Handbook, or Steve Houston’s Figure Drawing book. My favorite was the Vilppu Drawing Manual, which was impossible to find in print. I did find a PDF online and some old videos, which I used to practice drawing. These were all great and I started to see real improvement in my ability to sketch and build figures.
Eventually I felt that I needed some critique, someone to help push me further. I found out that both Glenn Vilppu and Steve Houston were featured in New Masters Academy. So I signed up for that and watched a lot of art videos.
In 2017 I signed up for Art Mentors, a spin-off of New Masters Academy, which is what I consider my first real art classes outside the figure drawing class I took in high school. I took Glenn Vilppu’s course on figure drawing, went through the lectures and the homework, and received critique videos from Glenn Vilppu himself, based on my drawings. I found it enormously helpful! I also took a portrait course with Chris Legaspi, also enormously helpful.
While I never gave up on comic/animation art, I found myself becoming more and more enamored with fine arts and the idea of painting. Once I moved to NYC, I started going to open figure drawing classes around the city. One of these sessions was hosted by Simon Levinson, who I later learned was a painting instructor at the Art Students League. I decided I wanted to start painting too, so I signed up for his oil painting class.
While grueling at first, I ended up enjoying it quite a bit. Oil painting has a lot of factors that make it much more complicated than drawing. Things like solvents, mediums, fat over lean, and toxicity end up distracting, and can make it hard to feel like you can break into the medium. And on top of that there’s the mysterious world of color mixing, which comes down to material science. Certain brands have different formulations of pigments which can completely alter your color mixing. Obvious examples of this are colors like Burnt Sienna, which can be completely different across brands. But, oil paint is such a beautiful medium, and I knew that if I pushed through I’d eventually get somewhere.
And I did! I made a few crappy paintings over the course of the class. Each pose was for the entire month, so if you messed up the first 2 sessions, you could still shape it into something by the end.
The next challenge was plein air painting. I have another blog post I’m working on about plein air painting, but my first experiences with it were essentially glamping compared to what I ended up doing in France. Over the course of the summer, Simon’s class painted in Central Park. We’d arrive at different locations and paint across 4 sessions each Saturday. The difficult part was finding a good setup. I invested in a steel easel and a bunch of useless thingies and ended up with a very jank setup for no reason at all. I don’t know why I didn’t just buy a French easel or a pochade box. (I think I was influenced by James Gurney and his jerry-rigged setups.)
The main thing that upset me as a painter was that I felt like I wasn’t a good enough draftsman to get the results I wanted. Simple drawing problems were holding back my paintings. So I decided to go back to drawing and took classes with Michael Burban. During this period I experimented with other mediums, such as watercolor, acrylic, and gouache. A lot of my watercolor and gouache work was inspired by James Gurney and his blog and Youtube videos.
Things were going very well with Burban’s classes until I took a break sometime in December 2019 and said I’d be back in March 2020.
I think you know where things go from here!
The pandemic was a rough couple of years for art. Our apartment is small and not really great for painting, especially not oil painting. I had been using turpenoid in my classes at the league, which is allegedly odorless, but it stinks and needs ventilation. I did some acrylic and gouache at the time, but I just didn’t feel like I could paint in the space and do the painting I wanted to do with the setup of our apartment. I thought I’d be clever and switch to digital painting, and I did produce a few that I liked, but I just couldn’t get my brain in an artistic place, since a lot of my inspiration came from being outdoors and seeing the world. I love sketching on the train and painting nature, a lot of my ideas come from that.
I also had an obsession with “making my own work,” which is a huge blocker to creativity. It’s a negative spiral. Your brain is like, “I want to paint,” but picking up a brush and throwing random paint on an XL canvas isn’t necessarily going to produce your next big idea. So you end up doing nothing, because you’re sitting there trying to think of an idea. I eventually found a way to deal with this blocker, which I’ll get into later in the creativity section, but this didn’t really come to me until after I went to France in 2025.
I started focusing on coding, and actually did pretty well in my self studies. I learned how to build websites with Ruby on Rails and learned some theory for how projects are built with other frameworks as well. I dabbled a bit in game development and learned a bit of computer science. But I eventually hit a wall, the classic intermediate plateau. One of my big blockers to improving was similar to my art blocker, which was “making a big project.” I wanted to build a big project but I couldn’t think of anything I wanted to build, and my skill was too low to build some of the “ideas” I had floating in my head. It creates a vicious cycle similar to the “making my own work” blocker I mentioned earlier. It turns out that you run into the same walls regardless of your discipline.
The other big wall was thinking I could join in on the tech industry hiring rush of 2020-2022, but I just couldn’t self-study and develop my skills until 2023 and by that point the industry was retracting, thanks to excessive hiring from that 2020-2022 period. It doesn’t help that AI auto-completion via Copilot, ChatGPT, and other LLM tools were gaining popularity around then, which really killed any desire I had to code professionally. One of the things I loved about coding was solving problems, even if they’ve been solved before. Having a tool that recognizes common problems and solves them for you should in theory be a good thing, but it took away the fun for me. I’ll still probably do some coding as a hobby for game development and web development, but that’s about it.
I had a pretty intense existential moment sometime in like 2021 where I gave up on art mentally. I’m not sure why that happened, but I just couldn’t deal. When things started re-opening up in late 2021/early 2022, I signed up for a league class with Sherry Camhy. I liked Sherry as a teacher, she was always pushing me to make my own work and get weird with it. I think I need that in my life. The opening lines of Harold Speed’s “Oil Painting Techniques and Materials” touch on this:
“There are two ways of teaching art, one is to teach and the other is not to teach. One is to train the faculties and perceptions that art employs by hard drilling, so that the student may be a thorough master of the means of expression, and have his perceptions trained to accurate observation; and the other is to leave the student to the guidance of the intuitive impulse that is impelling him to be an artist, letting him rub along by himself and stumble upon a means suited to his needs. Great artists have been produced by both methods. The danger of the first system is, that he may become so absorbed in the technical side of his art, which is very engrossing, that he may stifle his native perceptions; the expression of which can alone justify him as an artist. The artist must master his technique before he can express what he wishes to, but he may in gaining this power become so enamoured with it, that he may be prevented from launching out into any newer forms of expressions (which are always at first rather crude, demanding some sacrifice of technical accomplishment), and be content to dazzle by the display of his ability. If one is too exquisite about the means of expression, one often ends by expressing nothing in particular.
And the danger of the second method is that his intuition may not be sufficiently strong to carry him very far. He may be bursting with artistic matter seeking expression, but inadequacy of means may prevent him from producing anything effective. Although it is surprising how rapidly the artist of strong intuition picks up the knowledge necessary to expression. There are advantages to both methods and I think it is possible to combine them.”
I’ve been “both” at different points of my art career. Before I started taking art classes, I was bursting with ideas and trying and failing a lot. The inadequacy meant that none of my work was fulfilling visually to me and I couldn’t shake the feeling that my pieces looked amateur. Perhaps I’ll never overcome that feeling. But once I started taking a lot of classes, I became obsessed with “correct technique,” sometimes at the cost of the drawing/painting itself. It doesn’t matter if you constructed the figure well on a technical level if you don’t put some of your artistic spirit into it.
Do I need a class to bring the artistic side of me out? I don’t think so, which is why I switched to a more traditional figure drawing class with Brandon Soloff and Richard Piloco. I’ve been in that class for a few years now (I’m the monitor for their afternoon sessions).
Despite that, I was phoning it in for a long time, just drawing and putting in the reps, but not reflecting or improving. But after going on a painting trip in France, where I had a lot of time to focus on painting, I’ve been feeling energized to learn and practice. Now I’m putting my best foot forward.
I still want to make my own art, whether it be paintings, sketches, or maybe even comics and animations. I’ve been working at home in the studio space I’ve built for myself in my small apartment. And so here we are, that’s the backstory of my artistic journey so far. But what have I learned outside of technique?
Lessons I’ve learned
Lifestyle
Making even a little bit of art daily is important. It doesn’t need to be fancy or time-consuming, just a sketch on a piece of paper is enough. If you want to paint, paint! Have some canvas paper ready and just go for it, no need to worry about making a masterpiece. If you like it enough you can always re-paint it on a canvas later.
Shaping your environment to be conducive to the art you want to make is extremely important, if not one of the most important things you can do for yourself. If you don’t have space to paint, how will you paint? There’s a fine line of course, we can’t all make full-sized studios in our apartments, but it’s not too hard to set up a small easel on a desk. I’ve found that now that I set up a space with an easel and a screen for reference, I’m painting much more, because I no longer have the barrier of needing to set up my space before I start.
Keeping a pocket sketchbook and a pen/mechanical pencil has been an important habit in my artmaking. I get a lot of ideas from observing the world and just sketching something real quick. I love sketching people on the train, even though it’s difficult. I mostly just try and capture their pose quickly and then use memory to fill in the blanks on their outfit. I make big mistakes sometimes, I’ll look back after finishing a quick sketch and see they wore their hat the opposite direction. You win some, you lose some.
Going to museums and seeing art in-person has always been a lot of fun for me. Making the time to go is harder, but it’s worth it. I bring my sketchbook to sketch sculptures and paintings I like, and I bring my iPad to practice painting (since you can’t paint at the Met unless you participate in their copyist program or take a class that lets you do it). There’s always something to learn at a museum!
Finding time for art is another difficulty I had for a long time, but reducing time spent in other areas is really the best way I’ve found to better integrate it into my life. I’ve never been that huge into social media, but I found TikTok to be extremely addicting. As fun as the memes were, I realized it was interfering with the things I wanted to do, so I uninstalled. I don’t even have Instagram on my phone anymore. We’ve also cut a lot of TV and streaming from our lives, so there’s simply been more time for drawing and painting.
Painting in general
Painting and drawing are different but related skills. Being a good draftsman will help you become a better painter and being a good painter will help you be a better draftsman, but it’s kind of hard to put the two skills together at first. I find myself needing to “switch modes” once I finish the underdrawing of a painting to a more painterly approach. It seems to me that the key to getting better is to do both a lot. Beginners are often told to not paint because they’re better off learning how to draw with those materials since it’s cheaper, but I think there’s a lot of value in making bad paintings and not delaying.
Painting can be very expensive or very cheap depending on how you approach it. Going cheap at first is a good idea, but low quality brushes tend to lose hairs quickly, lose shape and break, and low quality paint tends to mix weird or have weird drying properties. Neither of these points should dissuade someone from using cheap materials, but I prefer not to buy things twice, so I go for mid-range brushes and artist grade paint. That seems to be the sweet spot, as the artist grade paint makes mixing easier, and the brushes get the job done without being super expensive.
Gloves make cleanup a breeze. I don’t use them for watercolor, but I like using them for oil and acrylic painting. I only use them on my left hand, which is usually holding a rag of some kind to wipe my brush. I used to use them on both hands, but I think that’s excessive.
Toxicity in painting is kind of weird, because the debate surrounding it is full of anecdotes and personal experience rather than hard science. Unfortunately, there are very few toxicological studies geared towards artists and long-term use of these materials, so at most you have to rely on the company’s SDS (Safety Data Sheet). While you don’t need cadmiums, flake whites, etc., they’re very good at what they do as colors, and most classes will have them on the supply list. Ultimately, I use toxic pigments, but use non-toxic solvents as my main tools.
I love shortcut colors. I understand that it’s important to avoid them at first to learn color mixing. But they are so useful, especially if you’re short on time, like when you’re plein air painting. I love Dioxazine Purple, it’s one of my favorite pigments, such a beautiful color. I like making chromatic blacks with it, it really makes the black “pop” even if it isn’t realistic. Or Sap Green, which saves me a ton of time mixing greens for a landscape. Naples Yellow has become a favorite in my oil painting palette as well, it’s a nice way to lighten up a color without using Titanium White. Sometimes it’s important to take classroom advice with a grain of salt because ultimately you can do whatever you want in a painting and use whatever colors you want. I was thinking of picking up a magenta, cyan, and teal recently because James Gurney wrote about CMYK as painting primaries and I’m interested in trying it out.
Acrylic Painting
Acrylics are awesome, I don’t think they get enough credit for how awesome they are. They’re cheaper than oil paint and don’t need mineral spirits to dissolve. Golden makes excellent acrylics with a very good consistency. The main reason they get a lot of heat is that they dry very quickly, so it’s hard to blend edges together unless you do it immediately. But I don’t really see a problem with that, it just means that edges need to be handled in the moment rather than later.
Acrylic is great for painting sketches. I have an XL Canson mixed media sketchbook that I’ll paint on for studies of bigger painting ideas I have. I’ve been using it a lot more lately to practice my color mixing for oils too, since the pigments behave similarly.
They sell slow drying acrylics for people who want to use them more like how they’d use oil paint. I can’t vouch for them, but I’m interested in trying them out and writing a review sometime in the future.
I have a bottle of slow-drying medium I’ve yet to try, and I’m thinking I’ll do some comparisons soon.
Watercolor
Watercolor is simultaneously the easiest and hardest medium in my experience. It has a low skill floor (easy to pick up), but a high skill ceiling (difficult to master).
Simply putting color on a drawing is so easy with watercolor. All you need is watercolor paper of some kind, a pencil, and your paint with water. It’s so simple!
Clean up is a breeze, it takes seconds to rinse your brushes and be on your way.
It’s easy to “mess up,” but with watercolor you need to trust the process a bit. Sometimes you’ll put too much water and it’ll create a weird effect on your perfectly rendered face and you just gotta accept it, let it dry, then try again.
Oil Painting
Some of the biggest hurdles with oil paint have nothing to do with painting, but around the materials. Oil paint is hard to clean out of your brushes without a brush cleaner of some kind, such as gamsol, artist-grade turpentine (turpenoid), etc. But all of those are toxic and not something you want to use at home without good ventilation. There are alternatives such as using linseed oil to clean your brushes, but that has its own issues. What I’ve been using for home painting are the lavender brush cleaners from Chelsea Classical Studio. They smell pretty strongly of lavender, but I’d much rather have a pleasant smell than whatever the hell turpenoid smells like. The SDS on those show that you don’t need any special equipment or ventilation to use them, but I still keep a fan going with the windows wide open anyway.
Oil painting is easier if you do things in layers, layers meaning painting over dried oil paint across multiple sessions, but it’s time consuming to do that. For oil paint to be dry to the touch (without medium) it can take a week+ depending on the pigments you used.
Painting alla prima lets you paint in “layers” (technically it’s all one layer when it comes to drying) and develop a painting quickly. I’m a big fan and the painting classes I take in Chelsea are alla prima. However, it is difficult to develop a good painting in just one session of about 3 hours, so it can be a bit discouraging at times. Maybe someday!
One of the main difficulties I had when I first started with alla prima is that it’s easy to apply too much thinned out paint which doesn’t stick to the canvas. The balance I’ve found to work for me is a 4 step approach: 1. Apply a thinned base layer with a color like transparent red oxide, but not too thin. A bit of thinner with linseed mixed together to get a somewhat less than buttery texture. 2. Draw using thinned burnt umber (a bit thicker than the base layer). 3. Paint big shapes and values for areas like the background with a bit of thinner/linseed, a buttery texture compared to the first layer. 4. Start painting without thinning anymore, just paint out of the tube mixed together. If I think I’ll be painting on the piece again, I don’t use much medium.
Oil painting is great for plein air because you don’t have to worry about the paint drying quickly. I wouldn’t use regular acrylics outdoors (but apparently the slow-drying ones dry closer to oils) and my experience with watercolor outdoors is that it dries significantly faster than at home and the studio, making the medium even more stressful than usual. Similarly, gouache is great for plein air, but also dries kinda quickly depending on the weather. Oil is tough to beat in terms of convenience, if only it was easier to lug everything!
Oils are very beautiful while applying the paint, it has a nice shine to it, but that does go away when it dries. People often use medium like linseed oil to get that shine in their paintings and afterwards you can get back the shine with a gloss varnish. I’ve been using gamvar lately to great effect.
Creativity
I’m no expert on creativity, but I have experience with a lot of blockers! I can at least focus on those.
Classes are both good and bad. Technique is useful and important, but it’s easy to just go to class and do the reps and not ever think about why you signed up in the first place. It probably was to make something, some idea you had.
I have a bad habit of getting into the zone and drawing fast, but it’s easy to miss things that way. My own journey has been slowing down and checking my work more often, which has helped me a lot.
I used to free sketch a lot pre-pandemic. No reference, just random doodles of things that would pop up in my head. I think it’s important to do that even if you’re a realist painter because it helps you think about composition and generates ideas. I’ve been doing it a lot more lately and it’s giving me some great ideas for some upcoming paintings.
I understand why classes tell students to focus on drawing first, but I think “good students” like myself take the rules too seriously. One of the advantages of learning as a child is there’s no fear of failure, which makes it much easier to experiment. I wish I had gotten into painting much earlier even if I was bad at it and my adult fear held me back from trying it for many years.